Sixteenth Lotus

[spandexisyouth]

I went looking for Shoanji earlier and cannot seem to find him. [There's a small spot from the pen resting on the page.] I do not suppose that anyone has seen him? It has been some time since he has written.

Simon, if you have time, I would like to speak with you please!

Comments

[spandexisyouth]

I do not want to force you to be something that you are not. But I do not want him hurt.

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

Oh, I won't hurt him. I am very well-behaved. But if you're afraid I might get unruly, you can always do what we do to Tenzou on a walk: collar and leash me?

[spandexisyouth]

If you think that that would help. I think it would look very strange.

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

If you can be a good Master and hold the leash firmly, then I can obey. But you must be commanding.

[spandexisyouth]

I am not weak; I can hold a leash. But you capitalized that. So there is more to it. But I think that I can be commanding. I am no longer sure what we are talking about though.

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

Don't second-guess yourself, or your pack will walk all over you. Choke up on the leash. Be the Alpha. Punish those that get out of hand.

What do you think we're talking about?

[spandexisyouth]

Oh. So it was just capitalizing. Except that is second-guessing myself.

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

When we get home, I'll give you the end of my leash and you can decide where the capitals should go.

[spandexisyouth]

I think, when we get home, if we do not find Shoanji, I would like a few minutes alone. If you did not mind. But then we can.

[lotus-bloomed.livejournal.com]

Why would Bell hurt me, Dad?

[spandexisyouth]

There are some things that should wait for a time. I do not want you having to deal with too much, especially all at once.

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

So vague and mysterious. You make it sound like I really would hurt your kid.

[spandexisyouth]

I know that you would not.

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

So why not be honest with Lotus?

Struck out fairly quickly

[spandexisyouth]

But to what point? I do not want to hurt him either.

Struck out fairly quickly

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

At least tell him clearly that I won't intentionally hurt him, so he doesn't start thinking I'm going to attack him or something.

Struck out fairly quickly

[spandexisyouth]

Oh. Right.

[lotus-bloomed.livejournal.com]

Honest about what?

[grab-my-bells.livejournal.com]

Your dad's just [A pause] paranoid. Or something.

[lotus-bloomed.livejournal.com]

That is not good! What is he paranoid about? Maybe if I know I can help him so that he will not have to feel that way anymore!

[lotus-bloomed.livejournal.com]

Deal with too much? I do not understand.

[spandexisyouth]

He will not hurt you. You should know that.

There are some things that I do not know how to say. That I do not know if I should say, or when I should if I should. Please give me time, my son.

[lotus-bloomed.livejournal.com]

If you say that he will not hurt me, then he will not hurt me, Dad. I trust you.

That you do not know how to say? But you know everything! I will wait if you think that I need to wait though.

[spandexisyouth]

I do not know everything. I am learning as well. But learning is a good thing!

[lotus-bloomed.livejournal.com]

You know everything that is important.