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Forty-second lotus

[Early on the 27th.]

I have been here for two years now. It has been an honor to make what friends I have. It is not good to be taken away to a place you do not know, but it is made better by the company. I do not know what tomorrow will bring, especially here, but I am glad to be part of it. And perhaps there will once more be singing bananas next week, or a tasty rain. Or mistletoe which means hugs!

But I do have something to say that is not as pleasant to think about as hugs and songs. It is a bit hard to write but it must be written because what came before was written.

A long time ago I wrote that my son was here. I have been calling Spring, Lotus, my son for a long time based on how I felt and what I saw and remembered, and what I was told by someone from my world. I was wrong. I have mislead you all and I am sorry. He is still important and precious to me, but we are not related by blood. It seems that he is one of my students from home, as Sighted, who was likely also Helix, was. I am sorry again. I did not mean to lie to everyone but I did. I can only hope that I am forgiven.
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[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-07 09:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Yet it's a misunderstanding that brought you joy rather than sorrow. Doesn't that make it a worthwhile thing?
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-07 10:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. But it also made it a selfish thing.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-07 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
Then let me ask you. Did anyone come to harm for this belief you held?
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-07 10:18 pm (UTC)(link)
I am not sure. I would like to think that it did not hurt Lotus when he was here, and Spring is not upset. So I do not think so. But I cannot ask my son from student from the past.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-07 11:07 pm (UTC)(link)
The past's all you can truly see, my friend. The future is still to flow past us. If you meet your student again some day, then you'll know.
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-07 11:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Lotus is Spring, a younger Spring. But Spring did not remember that time. So I will never know.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-08 11:37 am (UTC)(link)
Time is twisted upon itself here. Perhaps it'll straighten its course in due time.
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-11 03:06 am (UTC)(link)
Perhaps it will! Perhaps we will remember all of our things one day!

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-11 09:57 pm (UTC)(link)
It does seem memory is seeping through the cracks here, if I put it not so directly.
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-11 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
That is more direct than many would! I think it would be [long pause and the pen rests here for a bit.] interesting if people remembered their previous times here too.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 10:53 am (UTC)(link)
I'm almost glad I've found no sign I'd have been here before, though I know it's happened to others. One sojourn is enough to work out.
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-12 08:17 pm (UTC)(link)
I agree. Though a few of my most precious people have been here more than once.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
That's curious. It's as if people from some worlds strayed here more often than those from others, you think?
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-12 11:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I do not know. Bell has been here at least twice, Spring at least three times, but I have only been here once. That is all as far as I know, though.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-12 11:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Just something that's crossed my mind; not something I can explain, I fear.
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-12 11:26 pm (UTC)(link)
That is fine. I cannot add to theories either. Sometimes that is the way of things.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-13 10:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Perhaps it's no matter, if the memories are lost anyway.
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-17 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
It is possible they are not lost forever. Bell saw something that seemed to be from his previous time here.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-22 10:00 pm (UTC)(link)
A memory from an earlier stay? Layers upon layers of mysteries, I see. So nothing is truly lost here, either?
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-23 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
I am not sure that it is. But it is not always easy to find things.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-24 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
At least you've given me something more to think about. As if there wasn't enough otherwise. But it's fine.
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-24 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
It is good to have things to think about!
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[personal profile] spandexisyouth 2011-10-27 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
That is a good point. And things to do are even better.

[identity profile] crimson-seeker.livejournal.com 2011-10-28 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah. I rather prefer those.
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