Forty-second lotus

[spandexisyouth]

[Early on the 27th.]

I have been here for two years now. It has been an honor to make what friends I have. It is not good to be taken away to a place you do not know, but it is made better by the company. I do not know what tomorrow will bring, especially here, but I am glad to be part of it. And perhaps there will once more be singing bananas next week, or a tasty rain. Or mistletoe which means hugs!

But I do have something to say that is not as pleasant to think about as hugs and songs. It is a bit hard to write but it must be written because what came before was written.

A long time ago I wrote that my son was here. I have been calling Spring, Lotus, my son for a long time based on how I felt and what I saw and remembered, and what I was told by someone from my world. I was wrong. I have mislead you all and I am sorry. He is still important and precious to me, but we are not related by blood. It seems that he is one of my students from home, as Sighted, who was likely also Helix, was. I am sorry again. I did not mean to lie to everyone but I did. I can only hope that I am forgiven.

Comments

[awokentospring.livejournal.com]

Da

Gai-sensei. You did not have to tell anyone about this. You did not know so it was not a lie.

[spandexisyouth]

For over a year I told these people that I had a son, and some of us even strengthened relationships based on that. I mislead them and I owed them an apology, Spring. I wrote about it on the journals and so it makes sense that I apologize on the journals as well.

[awokentospring.livejournal.com]

I think you are blaming yourself for something that is not your fault. You say it is a lie, but you did not know, unlike me who. Did. Or at least I guessed right and did not bring it up openly with you when I should have.

You should not have to apologize.

[spandexisyouth]

You knew? How long did you know for? Or guess for?

[awokentospring.livejournal.com]

I guessed very early on. After I saw that... awkward memory.

You were definitely not old enough to have fathered someone my age, Dad.

[spandexisyouth]

But

Time

I guess I do not have any protests that I can make. We know that I did not.

[awokentospring.livejournal.com]

Do not be sad, Gai-sensei. You are still my father in my heart.

[spandexisyouth]

Thank you, Spring. I still feel as if you are my son, in my heart.

[awokentospring.livejournal.com]

Then we are in agreement here, I think.

[spandexisyouth]

Good.