Entries tagged with confused

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Thirty-seventh Lotus

I need to find something that I like the taste of that is caffienated. I am having trouble staying awake at [pause] some times when I should stay awake. I do not know why this is happening; I have never had trouble like this before!

And it is not a sign that I am getting old. Before anyone says that. Or thinks that. Or writes that.

Current Mood: confused

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Twenty-fifth Lotus

[The writing has odd pauses in it, it doesn't flow at the normal rhythm. But it's definitely Youth's.]

Ice cream truck has special ice cream! The. The ice cream truck does! It tastes funny, but now everything is very good.

I do not know why everyone was upset. I wrote so that if something was happening it would not make them upset. I do not know what to do if the elevator does not behave again but it finally started behaving and now I have seen the ice cream truck and I think that I prefer other types of ice cream over the special ice cream but now everything sparkles so I thought my journal should sparkle too. At least I did not try the apple ice cream.

I need to stop missing work and important people. I am sorry, Handmaiden. And Stoneface, if Stoneface is back yet.

The lelevator is a very strange thing. Elelvator. Ls look funny.

Current Mood: happy

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Twenty-second Lotus - blooming twice

[There are a lot of spots on the page where his pen has rested as he tries to figure out what to write and how. Then his familiar handwriting starts.]

I do not know how to apologize since I still do not know what happened but I am sorry and I am back! And I would like to see everyone who wants to see me.

[There's more pen resting.]

I have a brother now! It is not worth dying over. But now I have one, and I wanted one. So that is good at least.

I think that I need to figure out how to alter the direction of my kick in mid-air. Does anyone have suggestions?

Current Mood: annoyed

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*memory crystal,
*memory penalty,
-derrick,
-genius,
-rabbit,
-reed,
apples,
confused,
hates apples more,
i'm chiquita banana and i'm here to say,
youth is an adjective,
~eyepatch

Ninth Lotus

This is not right. This is not right in any possible way that anything could be right.

[Slowly a sketch is drawn, erased a couple of times until Youth is happy enough with it.]

I do not know what any of this means. I do not think I like this.